Noticings

So, huh, the second week of my Year of Opening was really quite challenging.
Here’s my Friday roundup because scaring the bejeesus out of myself with uncertainty noticing can be reassuring useful.
Opening/calm/conscious/conflict/crisis-y type Noticings
Drama probably means I’ve hit a Thing and don’t realise it
The crisis part of the spiritual-crisis from this week has subsided and left [...]

Because it’s good to learn notice.
Conscious/calmness/conflict/crisis-y type noticings
I still lose it
Yep, I know it’s disappointing, but when I get triggered, I still jump into attacking/defending.
After 10 weeks.
I know.
Awareness of shenpa helps
Shenpa is (as far as I understand) the Tibetan word that often gets translated as ‘attachment’ but that Dzigar Kongtrül [...]

I’d like to make this a real update of what I notice is different from last week.  Before I go through the notes I’ve been making, let me talk a little about what’s been going on.

Much as my week was meant to be focused on being less certain, this week has mainly been a product [...]

Writing this from my sick-desk.
I hope I’m not delirious.
This may be short. Or ridiculously long. Let’s see…
I mainly focused on shutting up and listening this week.
Conflict-y noticings
‘Shut Up and Listen’ has two meanings.
First, don’t speak. Second, be quiet inside. The first I could teach. The second? I don’t know…

I’m bad at not speaking
I have to [...]