Because it’s good to learn notice.
Conscious/calmness/conflict/crisis-y type noticings
I still lose it
Yep, I know it’s disappointing, but when I get triggered, I still jump into attacking/defending.
After 10 weeks.
I know.
Awareness of shenpa helps
Shenpa is (as far as I understand) the Tibetan word that often gets translated as ‘attachment’ but that Dzigar Kongtrül Rinpoche (and Pema C) refer more accessibly to as ‘hooked’ as in the hook within a thought that pulls you into an emotional reaction and out of awareness of the present moment.
I was introduced to this concept by Pema Chödrön‘s work.
This week I’ve been listening to Mahala Mazerov’s great course on surviving holidays/celebrations by being aware of shenpa, and it really helps. (I think registrations are closed now.)
I can see when I look back at a situation the beginning whispers of shenpa, and am aspiring that that helps me see them more in real time, as it were.
Following my advice? Helps me.
No one is more surprised about this than me. I’ve been following my process of checking if I have a Thing and it’s really helping. For example, I noticed that I was going into a coaching session dreading it, and realised that, following the steps, I was able to stop the train-of-thought in its tracks.
And that’s a pattern that I’ve known about for years.
Finally able to spot it and stay conscious enough to not believe it.
Bigger than it sounds.
If I shut up, the conversation survives
There have been a few times this week when I was really conscious about listening, including using the Tell-Me-More buffer.
I have the experience of comments arising ready to be said, and of me letting them slide past me unsaid.
And, you know what?
The other person is totally fine.
The conversation survives.
I feel a bit more… healthy, somehow.
For a person with an Overwhelming Desire To Speak, this is, also, big.
In-Other-News Noticings
I have to adjust my calorie equation
Because no matter that I think I don’t eat too much, my body is telling me that I do.
So, I’m trying out a gently semi-vegetarian, almost-no refined sugar, lower fat, low-ish carb ‘diet’ and seeing how it goes.
I think I never readjusted from needing more calories when I was trying to ‘bulk up’.
Well, I bulked up, alright.
I am a programming god
Ok, maybe installing and formatting a Related Posts plugin and using RegEx (I have no real idea what that is) to stop my new permalink structure from leading people to the 404 page might not seem big to you geek types.
But it involved me clapping and ‘YES!’-ing in public.
Twitter? Totally rad.
Yep, now I am following quality people, Twitter is a life-saver.
It’s company when I’m just spending my days pretty much typing, and several times this week, people have provided me with support, much-needed info, and LOLs (that’s an ironic LOL – I’ve not turned that crazy).
It’s like working in an office full of really smart, funny, interesting people.
If you’re not on it, and you work for yourself, dude.
Oh – and speaking of ‘dude’, Shonda Rhimes is there, in my office, and so is Kristin Chenoweth.
DUDE.
How do I choose?
There have been times this week when everything on my to-do list has been something I want to do.
Evidently I am lacking tools to prioritise when there is no dread involved.
Had to learn new skills, fast.
Good, though.
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*Points below PROUDLY*
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